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Truthfully? Actual cities are enough to make me wonder. At least you might have a chance of going up to the moon here. It's temporary, and it's unlikely that you'd get trapped there for good.
[Like her people did.]
There's something I said to someone back home. Someone I cared about. [Loved. Will always love. Lexa will never leave her, will never have less of an impact on who she is as a person now.] I told her that life is about more than just surviving. Sometimes it feels that way. It's easy to fall into that trap.
[Like her people did.]
There's something I said to someone back home. Someone I cared about. [Loved. Will always love. Lexa will never leave her, will never have less of an impact on who she is as a person now.] I told her that life is about more than just surviving. Sometimes it feels that way. It's easy to fall into that trap.
yeah, eventually, when i get the money for it
[he'll keep dreaming big-]
just getting by you mean? doing enough to make ends meet?
it's true though
focusing on the smaller things in life that bring joy and happiness
that makes things all that much more worth it
so even when we're stuck in a place like this, with all its negatives and unknowns, and i miss people from home?
there's still a lot of good going on for us in this place
[he'll keep dreaming big-]
just getting by you mean? doing enough to make ends meet?
it's true though
focusing on the smaller things in life that bring joy and happiness
that makes things all that much more worth it
so even when we're stuck in a place like this, with all its negatives and unknowns, and i miss people from home?
there's still a lot of good going on for us in this place
No, it runs deeper than that. When all you think about is how to survive, you're willing to do anything to make that possible. You think about advancing yourself and the people around you to secure that outcome. Sometimes you only see the worst of it. You believe that the means always justify the ends: and in this case, the ends are survival. You can't only live that way if the world has forced you to do so, and I think ... even among ourselves here, we're risking a lot by failing to remember this. We put ourselves first a lot. We should, to some degree, but not if it makes us lose sight of the bigger picture.
But that just makes what you said all the more true.
We do have a lot of good going on here.
But that just makes what you said all the more true.
We do have a lot of good going on here.
...never thought of it that way
i've never been in a position where i just have to figure out how to survive
guess i'm pretty conceited and privileged in my upbringing in that way
but before coming here i lost everything
to have everything again now, it's so... strange, but it's a gift in many ways
a second opportunity even
from what you said, i'm guessing you were never in a position of privilege in terms of not having to think about survival huh?
what with coming down from space to a planet that wasn't what it used to be when the bombs hadn't happened?
i've never been in a position where i just have to figure out how to survive
guess i'm pretty conceited and privileged in my upbringing in that way
but before coming here i lost everything
to have everything again now, it's so... strange, but it's a gift in many ways
a second opportunity even
from what you said, i'm guessing you were never in a position of privilege in terms of not having to think about survival huh?
what with coming down from space to a planet that wasn't what it used to be when the bombs hadn't happened?
Edited 2019-02-26 16:28 (UTC)
It's good that you see it as a second opportunity. You don't have to. There was a time when I thought someone here had come from a perfectly normal life. I envied her. I couldn't even fathom what that was like. For a little bit, I thought it might be the same for you. How you carry yourself—you know? I admire it.
You're right, though. I always had to think about it. On the Ark, crimes were always punishable by death. The people who committed them were floated, and if you were under eighteen, you'd be locked away in a separate part of the ship. The 100 [Canon namedrop, aw yeah!] of us that were locked away were chosen to go down. We were expendable. Systems on the Ark were failing, so they needed appropriate test subjects to send down. It was better that it was us than anyone on the Ark who hadn't been convicted for a crime. There was always the chance that once we turned eighteen, we'd be floated anyway.
That kind of thinking, that kind of behavior—the worst part is that once we got down, we had no choice but to hit the ground running. But we were just kids. So, there were only a few of us who did. Who could.
I had to take care of them. Even when everyone from the Ark finally came down, I couldn't stop. It took the "adults," so to speak, a long time to accept that there weren't any acceptable losses among our numbers. But it was us ... the "kids," we're the ones who learned about war down below. Learned from our mistakes in encroaching on the wrong territory, or trusting the people who offered us salvation from the atrocities outside in the woods that had grown after the radiation subsided.
I'm giving you context because in all of that, I started to justify a lot of my actions by survival. I used that line against someone else, but I was just as guilty of it myself. We all were.
Being here, it's like I have to relearn how to think about the world. I'm glad I have some friends helping me out along the way. And yes, the little things do help. Like donuts and fake coffee-based iced drinks.
You're right, though. I always had to think about it. On the Ark, crimes were always punishable by death. The people who committed them were floated, and if you were under eighteen, you'd be locked away in a separate part of the ship. The 100 [Canon namedrop, aw yeah!] of us that were locked away were chosen to go down. We were expendable. Systems on the Ark were failing, so they needed appropriate test subjects to send down. It was better that it was us than anyone on the Ark who hadn't been convicted for a crime. There was always the chance that once we turned eighteen, we'd be floated anyway.
That kind of thinking, that kind of behavior—the worst part is that once we got down, we had no choice but to hit the ground running. But we were just kids. So, there were only a few of us who did. Who could.
I had to take care of them. Even when everyone from the Ark finally came down, I couldn't stop. It took the "adults," so to speak, a long time to accept that there weren't any acceptable losses among our numbers. But it was us ... the "kids," we're the ones who learned about war down below. Learned from our mistakes in encroaching on the wrong territory, or trusting the people who offered us salvation from the atrocities outside in the woods that had grown after the radiation subsided.
I'm giving you context because in all of that, I started to justify a lot of my actions by survival. I used that line against someone else, but I was just as guilty of it myself. We all were.
Being here, it's like I have to relearn how to think about the world. I'm glad I have some friends helping me out along the way. And yes, the little things do help. Like donuts and fake coffee-based iced drinks.
i'm not gonna deny that my upbringing was a lot more privileged than most. i never had to worry about things like the war happening or anything like that, so...
besides "normal" is subjective isn't it?
does floated mean... thrown into space?
[perhaps if prompto had been raised in niflheim, where the war was felt most strongly, or in any of the settlements across lucis that fell to the empire -- perhaps he could relate to clarke's experiences more strongly. still, although he paints a picture of privilege, he had his own struggles growing up: an obvious foreigner, with absent and neglectful parents, a constant encroaching loneliness. it's not the same, but whatever 'youth' and 'childish' demeanor he had upon leaving insomnia only to find out days later there was no home to return to and how much darker their trip was becoming after reaching altissia, it was very much like trying to make amends for something so much bigger than himself.]
[still, to this day, he feels the guilt of the clones that were made and used to fuel soldiers that were involved with bringing down insomnia, as if he is somehow at fault for their losses back home.]
it's not the same, but you were in a world that you thought you knew and were thrown into a whole new world with new rules and new perspectives
something similar happened with me and my friends
some things can be excused by survival...
but yours sounds like it was a really tough ride
knowing that and making a change is really brave
many just stick to their ways
besides "normal" is subjective isn't it?
does floated mean... thrown into space?
[perhaps if prompto had been raised in niflheim, where the war was felt most strongly, or in any of the settlements across lucis that fell to the empire -- perhaps he could relate to clarke's experiences more strongly. still, although he paints a picture of privilege, he had his own struggles growing up: an obvious foreigner, with absent and neglectful parents, a constant encroaching loneliness. it's not the same, but whatever 'youth' and 'childish' demeanor he had upon leaving insomnia only to find out days later there was no home to return to and how much darker their trip was becoming after reaching altissia, it was very much like trying to make amends for something so much bigger than himself.]
[still, to this day, he feels the guilt of the clones that were made and used to fuel soldiers that were involved with bringing down insomnia, as if he is somehow at fault for their losses back home.]
it's not the same, but you were in a world that you thought you knew and were thrown into a whole new world with new rules and new perspectives
something similar happened with me and my friends
some things can be excused by survival...
but yours sounds like it was a really tough ride
knowing that and making a change is really brave
many just stick to their ways
excellent
this apartment is kind of a shoebox so you wanna meet in one of the food places? im buying
this apartment is kind of a shoebox so you wanna meet in one of the food places? im buying
[Realistically, it's because Clarke can't function the way she did before. Here, survival is defined differently. "Normal" is what she saw on movies growing up: people whose concerns were mostly ones that involved romance, or money problems, or anything like that. It was another life. She knew what "normal" was, and even recognized it once when she went into Becca's house. A view into another world: one that burned away with everything else.]
My normal is subjective, but that doesn't mean it's okay. The way everyone grew up on the Ark wasn't okay.
Yes, "floated" means what you think it means. Open the airlock. [She doesn't type more. One day, someone will hear her say "go float yourself," and they'll understand it in a new context. Today isn't that day.]
What happened with you and your friends? I understand if you don't want to share. But if you would like to, I'd be interested in hearing it.
My normal is subjective, but that doesn't mean it's okay. The way everyone grew up on the Ark wasn't okay.
Yes, "floated" means what you think it means. Open the airlock. [She doesn't type more. One day, someone will hear her say "go float yourself," and they'll understand it in a new context. Today isn't that day.]
What happened with you and your friends? I understand if you don't want to share. But if you would like to, I'd be interested in hearing it.
love them
dunno how i'm gonna feel about bug burgers but i'll take what i can get
dunno how i'm gonna feel about bug burgers but i'll take what i can get
...it's not like it's a big secret or anything, it's just not an easy conversation starter since it's such a bummer all things considered
lucis and niflheim have been at war for forever. lucis is where we come from
there was a peace treaty so the prince has to marry a princess, but they gotta meet in a different city, so off we go to escort the prince out of insomnia.
a few days we get the news that the treaty was a lie and a way for the enemy to get inside the city, killing the king and basically decimating insomnia to nothing
so we're on the run and trying to reach the princess to save her
eeexcept my friends don't know this, but i do, we don't get to save her and instead everything's falling apart and all we can do is try to four-man army our way into the enemy territory
it's full of suck though. no home to return to, on the run, unable to save the princess, very shitty forecast for success
i never experienced the war so close to home like that before
lucis and niflheim have been at war for forever. lucis is where we come from
there was a peace treaty so the prince has to marry a princess, but they gotta meet in a different city, so off we go to escort the prince out of insomnia.
a few days we get the news that the treaty was a lie and a way for the enemy to get inside the city, killing the king and basically decimating insomnia to nothing
so we're on the run and trying to reach the princess to save her
eeexcept my friends don't know this, but i do, we don't get to save her and instead everything's falling apart and all we can do is try to four-man army our way into the enemy territory
it's full of suck though. no home to return to, on the run, unable to save the princess, very shitty forecast for success
i never experienced the war so close to home like that before
Edited 2019-03-05 01:05 (UTC)
cool, see you there
[ He'll just take whatever he can get. Kate's not letting him raid the fridge at his leisure anymore, and also he just hates being cooped up inside all day. So eating out and hanging out? Way better. ]
[ He'll just take whatever he can get. Kate's not letting him raid the fridge at his leisure anymore, and also he just hates being cooped up inside all day. So eating out and hanging out? Way better. ]
[prompto's making his way there, bringing his camera along just in case now that he's tried it out in public and feels more comfortable about people being aware of him using his camera.]
[he glances around and steps inside the relatively small diner, deciding to sit at a booth to wait for tommy--even if he knows he won't be waiting long.]
inside looking at menu
[he glances around and steps inside the relatively small diner, deciding to sit at a booth to wait for tommy--even if he knows he won't be waiting long.]
inside looking at menu
almost there
[ SKIDS IN KRAMER STYLE. Okay, not quite, but he does push the doors open with a little more force than necessary. but this whole moving at normal human speeds thing isn't great. ]
Hey.
[ SKIDS IN KRAMER STYLE. Okay, not quite, but he does push the doors open with a little more force than necessary. but this whole moving at normal human speeds thing isn't great. ]
Hey.
Four people might be enough. It was for my people.
[It might be surprising to hear that from her. Clarke hasn't been good at pushing optimism like she used to when she first touched the ground. Hope is a nebulous, dangerous thing to her these days.
She isn't saying it because she thinks he wants to hear it. This conversation is evidence of Clarke making a proclamation to stop doing that with the people who have become her friends.]
Are you planning on telling your friends? I doubt they want to hear about what happened to the princess, but they may be able to help you. Though I am glad that you're willing to talk to me about it.
[It might be surprising to hear that from her. Clarke hasn't been good at pushing optimism like she used to when she first touched the ground. Hope is a nebulous, dangerous thing to her these days.
She isn't saying it because she thinks he wants to hear it. This conversation is evidence of Clarke making a proclamation to stop doing that with the people who have become her friends.]
Are you planning on telling your friends? I doubt they want to hear about what happened to the princess, but they may be able to help you. Though I am glad that you're willing to talk to me about it.
they already know even if they haven't lived through it and know exactly how it came about
it's... it's fine. it could be better but this is just how our cards played out
kinda hard to follow the path you want when the guy you're bound to has to follow whatever whim the gods have in store for him
[he respects the gods because -- they're gods, but at the same time, he can't help thinking they're exceptionally unfair.]
as long as we're together we can do anything though
noct, iggy, gladio and i
it's... it's fine. it could be better but this is just how our cards played out
kinda hard to follow the path you want when the guy you're bound to has to follow whatever whim the gods have in store for him
[he respects the gods because -- they're gods, but at the same time, he can't help thinking they're exceptionally unfair.]
as long as we're together we can do anything though
noct, iggy, gladio and i
[prompto waves at the master skidder in greeting]
Sup.
[the place isn't that full which means they got the attention of the server aaaallll for themselves, for the most part.]
They got a combo offer. Try five burgers for the price of three, large fries and soda refills. You're a big eater, huh?
Sup.
[the place isn't that full which means they got the attention of the server aaaallll for themselves, for the most part.]
They got a combo offer. Try five burgers for the price of three, large fries and soda refills. You're a big eater, huh?
I'm glad you've told them. I wouldn't want you to carry that around alone.
But I don't like the sound of that with the gods. I'm guessing otherwise would be blasphemous, but I'm not very religious myself. Or spiritual, for that matter. That way of thinking didn't make it to my time.
But I don't like the sound of that with the gods. I'm guessing otherwise would be blasphemous, but I'm not very religious myself. Or spiritual, for that matter. That way of thinking didn't make it to my time.
it's pretty complicated for us
the gods are very literal
i've seen them with my own eyes
that and my best friend can communicate with them, royal blood and all that, and harnesses their power and gains their favor and stuff
so while i don't consider myself particularly religious i can't really dismiss it as not being real? cuz it's real
the gods are very literal
i've seen them with my own eyes
that and my best friend can communicate with them, royal blood and all that, and harnesses their power and gains their favor and stuff
so while i don't consider myself particularly religious i can't really dismiss it as not being real? cuz it's real
[ He'll go ahead and order that. And like another side of fries for good measure. ]
Oh yeah. I'm basically always hungry. Pretty sure my family woulda gone broke trying to feed both my uncle and me. [ and kate is already losing money housing him, sorry kate ]
Anyway, it's all good with me. How about you?
Oh yeah. I'm basically always hungry. Pretty sure my family woulda gone broke trying to feed both my uncle and me. [ and kate is already losing money housing him, sorry kate ]
Anyway, it's all good with me. How about you?
[prompto orders something a little less dramatic, a simple combo with a side of salad -- because you gotta keep healthy even if this is the future of bugs and beans.]
Can't relate, haha.
[he quips in an attempt for humor, knowing that if he goes ham on eating a lot--no matter how hungry--he'd pile on the pounds and hate himself for it. nowadays, he isn't as actively counting carbs or weighing the pros and cons on types of foods, but old habits die hard.]
Doing okay.
[noct's gone missing, but prompto tries not to think about it, offering a small smile instead.]
Been working on my CoolTalk since we last talked about social media stuff. It's a pretty decent platform with an easy interface.
[let's talk business, basically.]
Can't relate, haha.
[he quips in an attempt for humor, knowing that if he goes ham on eating a lot--no matter how hungry--he'd pile on the pounds and hate himself for it. nowadays, he isn't as actively counting carbs or weighing the pros and cons on types of foods, but old habits die hard.]
Doing okay.
[noct's gone missing, but prompto tries not to think about it, offering a small smile instead.]
Been working on my CoolTalk since we last talked about social media stuff. It's a pretty decent platform with an easy interface.
[let's talk business, basically.]
[ That's something Tommy can't even fathom. Billy complains about his food intake and his jealousy and it's in one ear and out the other. ]
Good. Good.
[ Don't watch him eat though, you'll never want to eat again. He has manners but he also eats like he's starving. And with Billy he has no issue cramming food in his mouth and talking - because Billy is stuck with him and just has to endure it, but he is a prince and can muster decent manners in polite-ish company. ]
So, okay, remember how I was saying social media is powerful and all that?
Good. Good.
[ Don't watch him eat though, you'll never want to eat again. He has manners but he also eats like he's starving. And with Billy he has no issue cramming food in his mouth and talking - because Billy is stuck with him and just has to endure it, but he is a prince and can muster decent manners in polite-ish company. ]
So, okay, remember how I was saying social media is powerful and all that?
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