Grandma treated me differently than others and when you say things you do it in a way that I believe
so it was nice when you started talking about us being friends like you really meant it or when you said you wouldn't say things that bothered me if you could help it
granted i don't really know him but.. he's my brother my real brother
you know how while being okay being lonely and alone there's this sense of "it's alright, this is normal"? even if that feeling of being lonely is still there? and despite being around others...
i don't feel that so much anymore remembering he is here
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hung out with my brother
we had a long conversation
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yes that I haven't slept
[His weird sleep schedule means he'll still be up for quite a while... Let him have this, now that Daiquiri stuff is over...!]
I didn't know you had a brother?
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and yeah tell me about it i didn't know either
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how do you not know that
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different dads
i didn't know she had a family before me so it never really came up
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that's
weird
[WHAT DOES HE SAY ABOUT THAT...]
so it's an older brother
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his name's cloud strife
he's twenty-four
he's... actually a really cool guy
nice, kinda funny sometimes, assertive
cloud's okay with being my brother despite everything
i'm really thankful
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[Yeah, he wondered... Maybe too much. Shh.]
I don't know why that wouldn't ever be okay to someone
but if you were worried then I'm glad he made sure you knew that
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it's actually been really cathartic to have validation from him
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I think I understand
not exactly but
Grandma treated me differently than others and when you say things you do it in a way that I believe
so it was nice when you started talking about us being friends like you really meant it or when you said you wouldn't say things that bothered me if you could help it
like stuff is real and matters I guess
it's nice
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i'm
happy that you think it's nice by the way
us being friends and just... becoming better friends?
i really appreciate that too
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do you want to tell me more about him?
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i'm really glad that out of any miraculous older brother i could have
that it's him
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that's good
I'm really glad too then
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my real brother
you know how while being okay being lonely and alone there's this sense of "it's alright, this is normal"?
even if that feeling of being lonely is still there? and despite being around others...
i don't feel that so much anymore remembering he is here
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mm
I have a cousin here she talks to me sometimes
[So he gets it, on the good days where he actually feels like he's considered family. She's what he has, anyway.]
family is weird
you're getting to get to know him too so maybe it will be less um
less something, more new thing
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yeah i look forward to talking to him
i didn't know you had a cousin here?
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she's here studying
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I don't NOT talk to her?
we used to not talk but it wasn't not talking we just didn't if that makes sense
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..getting kinda tired
hey
thanks for sending me a text
needed it
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go sleep ★